I'm Scared; Anxiety Sucks.
I'm scared. I'm worried of falling backwards. I know where my head was a long time ago, and I never want it to go there again. I'm scared of hurting someone, when I can't control myself. I'm scared I'll have another panic attack. I'm scared of passing out again. I don't want to go in an ambulance. I'm scared I won't get my anxiety under control and I won't be able to work. I'm scared everyone will get frustrated and push me away. I don't want people to worry about me. I don't like lunch. The noise, the smells. A lot of my high anxiety and attacks in the past were there. I'm worried about messing up. I'm not worried about losing my job anymore, but I'm worried I'll reach a point where I can't do it anymore. I'm scared I'll have another sensory meltdown and panic attack. They're worse than just a panic attack. I lose control and can't remember. I'm scared of my coworker. I'm w...